Trust Issue - Trusting You

本来想翻译的但是发现有很多句子在翻译过后就失去了原本的含义，很多的押韵也是无法被翻译的… 所以我还是决定不翻译啦。

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I’m just a child faking to be mature.

I’m only independent because I have no one to depend on.

I wish someone could proof me otherwise.

Kinda miss being that cat who hides beneath her owner’s arms —

The wanting to be accepted regardless what type of self I’m presenting.

I tried to explain things in words,

Most the of the time they don’t turn out very well,

So I keep secrets instead.

I tried to act as innocent as possible,

But only to find out how disconnected I am with my surroundings.

Feeling “rare” isn’t necessarily something to offer pain,

But I must say I’m weak enough to let those emotions control me.

Whenever I feel I own the control over my life, letting the words of others influence me,

I find myself in a unwanted position,

Unwanted by me.

Will there ever be an answer I’ll always accept?

I pray someone could proof my point.

Will there ever be someone who will fill up that silent emptiness within me?

At least, I wish I have someone to depend on.

Tame me.

I’ll offer you my independency, my fantasy, my trust, my uttermost want.

Own me.

So I will have a reason to kill you;

Kill those voices in my mind in contradictions,

As murder of crows wash away that brightness to parts,

Leaving me in that dark I long for, where I compose my art,

Oh my aching heart.

I lose logic as I give away my rationality.

I’m nothing different than an animal that reacts in fight or flight when it comes to danger,

I’m only myself who holds in a hand a dagger

Long enough to take my life like how Juliet took hers.

Will then I have enough attention?

Will time proof me wrong?

I guess I’m just faking to be poetic,

I guess I’m a bit bored.

The topic repeats itself over and over again,

Alike how history does the same.

I’m stuck in the cycle over and over again,

I wonder if there’s an exit.

Human minds are built to grow,

Like how mouth is used to speak.

I wish I can be more confident.

I wish I have someone to trust,

And catch me when I fall.

6/18/2024