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不是不想说话， 而是有很多话讲不出来，放在心里会安全点。

It's not that I don't want to speak, but there are a lot of things I can't say. It's safer to put them in my heart.

千辛万苦想握在手中的最后一根线也断了，我又成了桥洞下的流浪猫，不再关心人类的爱恨，生活只剩下填饱肚子和舔毛 。

The last thread that I tried so hard to hold in my hand was broken. I became a stray cat under the bridge again. I no longer cared about the love and hate of human beings. I was left to fill my stomach and lick my hair.

为什么不开心？

是忽然意识到，人与人之间的隔阂了。

从什么时候开始的呢？

朋友圈没有赞，发的消息不回，到真的没有什么话可说。

也是忽然明白，在自己人生那么重要的时刻，没有人能实质性的帮助我开导我。

这是正常的，我只是难过，朋友为什么都这样离我远去了。

可我什么也没做，可能也就是因为什么也没做吧，安慰捉襟见肘，唯有冷暖自知。

Why am I not happy?

Is suddenly aware of the gap between people.

When did it start?

There is no praise in the circle of friends, the message is not returned, there is really nothing to say.

Also suddenly understand, in their life so important moment, no one can substantially help me enlighten me.

It's normal. I'm just sad. Why are my friends so far away from me.

But I didn't do anything. Maybe it was because I didn't do anything. I was too much to comfort. I only knew what I was doing.

电影里一句“你最深爱的那个人是谁”，我竟然大脑一片空白，一个面孔也没有。

In the movie, "who is the person you love the most?" my brain is blank and I don't have a face.

现在的状态是，手机已经玩腻了，任何聊天软件也没有消息。

每天刷刷短视频，有时被文案触动，有时被视频戳心，生活真的很迷茫。

Now the status is that the mobile phone is tired of playing, and there is no message from any chat software.

Brush short video every day, sometimes touched by copywriting, sometimes poked by video, life is really confused.

幸好啊，我们之间隔着网络，方便相识，也方便告别。

Fortunately, there is a network between us, which is convenient for us to meet and say goodbye.

后来逐渐明白，告别是件常常发生的事情。我们会不断认识新的人，也会跟一些重要的人说再见。

很多时候没有正面冲突，大家也不是故意的，但回头一瞧彼此已经隔得很远了。

Later, it became clear that farewell was a common thing. We will constantly meet new people and say goodbye to some important people.

There are many times when there is no positive conflict, and we don't mean it, but looking back at each other is far away.