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我遇见过很多人，他们并没有那么喜欢我，却打着爱的名义对我挑三拣四， 要求我收敛脾气 。

I met a lot of people, they didn't like me so much, but in the name of love, they choosed me and asked me to restrain my temper.

我喜欢古镇，我喜欢小地方，我不爱霓虹灯 ，不爱满大街的斑马线 ，我要人情味儿像糖炒栗子一样。

总有一天，我要背上一包小零食，带上相机，穿最喜欢的衬衫和帆布鞋，买一张去外地的票，随便去哪里， 离开这里就好。

只想浪到尽头四海为家，所有感情不再寄人篱下。

I like the ancient town, I like the small place, I don't love the neon lights, I don't love the zebra crossing on the street, I want the human like the sugar fried chestnuts.

One day, I will carry a bag of snacks, take my camera, wear my favorite shirt and canvas shoes, and buy a ticket to go to other places. Just leave here wherever I go.

Just want to wave to the end of home, all feelings no longer rely on others.

我还是不知道我到底有没有开始长大，虽然每天穿着衬衫，敲着键盘，模仿别人说不够老练的大人话。

I still don't know if I have ever started to grow up, even though I wear a shirt and knock on the keyboard every day, imitating other people's immature adult words.

希望有一天，可以仅仅为了「我喜欢」这三个字去做事。

I hope that one day, I can do things just for the three words "I like".

我不愿意回到家乡，我这样抑郁的人在小地方就是怪物，那里容不下怪物，而大城市包容了各种各样的怪物。

I don't want to go back to my hometown. A depressed person like me is a monster in a small place, where there is no room for monsters, while a big city contains all kinds of monsters.

时间慢下来真的就是缓慢而稳定的，不能着急，不能勉强。

想用自己喜欢的方式把生活的无聊空白，一点点用乐趣搭建起来，即便这些乐趣慢点到来也没事，至少此刻有在认真寻找和努力。

Time slows down is really slow and stable, can't be anxious, can't be forced.

Want to use their favorite way of life boring blank, a little bit of fun to build up, even if these fun slow down to come, it's OK, at least at the moment in serious search and efforts.

也不管有没有到来的那一天，此刻已经为了去追求而让自己满足和开心了，结果怎么样，会不会真的找到一直让人开心的点，或者是感兴趣的，都没那么重要。

因为当下的愉悦，就是此刻宇宙中最辉煌璀璨的。

No matter whether the day comes or not, I am satisfied and happy now in order to pursue. The result is not so important, whether I will really find the point that makes people happy or interested.

Because the pleasure of the moment is the most brilliant in the universe.

其实让我焦虑的，不是忙也不是累。而是没有什么特别感兴趣的东西，也没有什么特别想见的人。

漫无目的的生活，就像出海航行而没有指南针。

In fact, what makes me anxious is not busy or tired. It's that there's nothing in particular that interests you, and there's nothing in particular that you want to see.

Aimless life is like sailing without a compass.

虽然吃过很多次亏，还是会因为一路走来没有丢掉那个天真的自己而感到庆幸。

可以被仄逼的人生搞得焦头烂额，可以斤斤计较，可以沉默，但起码要善良，要坚持做对的事情，生活一定会在某个时刻为你安排转机。

Although I have suffered many losses, I still feel lucky that I didn't lose my innocent self along the way.

You can be embarrassed by the narrow life, you can be fussy, you can be silent, but at least you should be kind and insist on doing the right thing. Life will arrange a turn for you at some time.