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最近没有什么直戳到心里能被特别想起的开心事，也没有什么闷着声忍着泪不敢多说的伤心事。

像这样情绪没有大起大落平淡地过生活，我觉得已经很好很好了。

Recently, there are no happy things that can be thought of in my heart, and there are no sad things that I dare not say with tears.

I think it's good to live a flat life without big ups and downs.

到了二十五六岁的年纪，发现爸爸妈妈的关心不像以前一样喋喋不休了。

他们也在观察我们的情绪，然后小心翼翼地把到嘴边的话收住。

At the age of twenty-five or twenty-six, I found that the concern of my parents was not as chattering as before.

They are also observing our emotions, and then carefully put the words to their lips.

当代年轻人的现状：其实没有什么大事发生，快乐偶尔也有，但更多的是觉得很累。

每天睁开眼就要为一些鸡零狗碎的事情忙碌，时间过得飞快，然后在睡前感叹终于又熬过了一天。

The current situation of contemporary young people: in fact, there is no big event, happiness occasionally, but more is that they feel very tired.

Every day when I open my eyes, I have to be busy with some trivial things. Time flies, and then I sigh before I go to bed that I have finally survived another day.

越来越觉得独处真的很舒服。一个人不被外界影响，专注做自己，只有一个人悲伤快乐。

即使有时候会感觉孤单，但大多数时候还是轻松自在的。

I feel more and more comfortable alone. A person is not affected by the outside world, focusing on being himself, only one person is sad and happy.

Even if I feel lonely sometimes, I feel relaxed most of the time.

也不是故意要喜怒无常，只是还在和自己谈判罢了。

I don't mean to be moody, but I'm still negotiating with myself.

在娃娃机前看到一个小女孩对里面的娃娃说：“妈妈说只给我这五个硬币，但是我希望你可以跟我回家，我会好好对待你的。”

后来只投了一枚硬币就夹出来了。

In front of the doll machine, I saw a little girl saying to the doll in it, "mom said she would only give me these five coins, but I hope you can come home with me, and I will treat you well."

Later, only a coin was put in and it came out.

我觉得爱我的人也是真的很辛苦，我这样敏感又脆弱，自私又小气，有时候突如其来的情绪我自己都兜不住，还要对方为我承担。

能爱我一阵子就很不容易了，我竟然还期待要爱我永远。

I think the people who love me are really hard. I'm so sensitive and fragile, selfish and mean. Sometimes I can't hold the sudden emotions, and I have to bear them for me.

It's not easy to love me for a while. I expect to love me forever.

在某些时刻，心情莫名其妙就变得很差。

就那么一瞬间，突然就丧了，感觉像是积攒了几天的热情，啪地一声就碎了。连自己都不知道是什么原因，莫名就会感到负能量爆棚。

莫名其妙，无缘无故。

At some point, the mood becomes very bad for no reason.

In such an instant, suddenly lost, feeling like a few days of accumulated enthusiasm, a crack on the broken. Even if you don't know what the reason is, you will feel the explosion of negative energy.

No reason, no reason.

当时没有解决的事情，就再也解决不了了。

那时候的情绪会渗透到皮肤里，血管里，连呼出来的气都带着“算了” 。

What was not solved at that time will never be solved again.

At that time, the emotion will penetrate into the skin, blood vessels, even the breath with "forget it".